Vision
Qualify for the 2012 NCAA wrestling championships at 125lbs
Stretch
All-American at the 2012 NCAA wrestling championships at 125lbs
Travel to Europe
Hope
Move to the Los Angeles area
Get a job working on film sets
Make enough money to support myself.
Reunite with some old friends
Knowledge
Lose 10 pounds
Graduate College
Leave Arizona
Become a volunteer high school wrestling coach
Start the next chapter of my life
1. Qualify for the 2012 NCAA wrestling championships at 125lbs February 26th 2012
Date: February 26th 2012
2. Keep my body healthy
Date: November 2011 - February 2012
3. Constantly work hard
Date: November 2011 - February 2012
4. Have success in Duals and tournaments that the team travels to.
Date: November 2011 - February 2012
5. Consistently win matches
Date: November 2011 - February 2012
6. WIn the starting spot for the 125lb. spot
Date: October 28th 2011
7. Get my weight down to 125lbs.
Date: October 28th 2011
What is posted above is what I just posted on my Facebook. Is it a list of goals that I hope to accomplish in the next year. I of course had to post it on my page so that my friends and family could know my goals and see if their help was needed in some way or another.
This entry is about me doing the best I can to express how I felt before, during, and after the process. To begin with, I am an extremely private person when it comes to my goals and what I’d like to accomplish. So I when I first saw that I would need to post my hopes and dreams for the next 365 days on my Facebook page, I wasn’t happy or comfortable about it to say the least. I don’t like other people knowing what I want to do until I accomplish it. That is how I’ve always been and I believe firmly that unless forced otherwise, that is how I will always be. Now, I don’t know why I am like this or why I feel this way about it. It could be I’m just a private and independent person, or it could be that I’m afraid of failure and disappointing others. In my personal opinion, from my own “diagnosis” is that it is probably a combination of all of those things. Regardless of what it is, the fact of the matter is I simply didn’t want to share my goals and I had to. Once I shared them on my Facebook page I wasn’t sure if I was more angry or scared. What I mean by this is; I was angry for having to share the things that I most wanted with everyone, but I was also incredibly scared because although I know my family would support me in whatever I wanted to do and accomplish, some of my friends might not be so encouraging. I am not saying that I have bad friends who don’t support me or wouldn’t be happy for me if I achieved my goals, but a lot of them are cynics and have a mean sense of humor. I feared that I might the butt of some jokes for quite some time. It is probable that my fear about this will come true as well. I know it’s doesn’t matter what others think, and to me it really doesn’t matters what others think. However, that doesn’t mean that I want to hear it. I think being a realist is a good thing, and I wanted people to tell me the truth, but when it comes to my personal goals I don’t want to hear people tell me that I can’t do it, even if I honestly can’t, which is why I think I don’t share them, I don’t want to be discouraged right off the bat.
Regardless of how I felt about it all, I still had to post it for a grade. After I posted it I will admit I was slightly relieved so I can respect that, but I was still scared, and angry for reasons that I explained above. I say I was a little relieved because regardless of how I felt I didn’t have to entirly share the burden now. So I do have a kind of positive view of something that I am strongly against doing. I’m not sure how that can exactly be, but it’s just how I believe that I feel right now.
